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What else do you have to say to
your fans at Queer Porn Nation?

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Thank you for being my fans, I'm happy
to satisfy you in any chance that I can.

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As you know I love sex,
I love shooting porn,

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I wish myself to do it
for many many years

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so you will have the best
jerk off ever.

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Hello.
-Hello.

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We are building a fantasy.
That's the idea, it's not a show.

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It's a porn movie on stage.

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There is no audience,
there is no crowd.

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It's like a theatre
and there is a fourth wall.

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And the fantasy is about
men at work in a car garage.

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Straight people, dumb people,
a little bit Neanderthal.

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We do a lunch break.

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You have your wife
bringing you a sandwich.

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The minute he takes
the booklet out

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you try to: "I'm not really straight,
are you straight?"

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Take the dildo out...
"Oh, I'm not straight."

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From that moment,
free to do what you want.

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I like big butts
and I cannot lie.

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This is a silicon based
for the show.

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You still live in Barcelona?
-Yes.

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You still do porn?
-No.

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Last year my sister had cancer.
I couldn't do anything.

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She's okay now?
-Myself?

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No. Your sister...
-She died in February. -I'm sorry.

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I'm sorry.

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It's like changes you,
changes your mind.

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With anything.
With anything you do.

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With lovers, with films
with anything...

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it's like...
-When...?

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February.

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Are you ready?
-Yeah.

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Let's go.

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I want you pretty much
to be like this.

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Sweetheart?
-Mama?

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Sweetie, I'm so glad to see you.

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We haven't talked since you left.

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I want you to meet Christo.

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Hello.
-That's Christo. –Hi.

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Only good things
I heard about you.

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I've heard very good
things about you too.

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How is your health?
Are you feeling better?

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Much better now,
thank you.

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Fantastic.

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He's so cute.
-I know.

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Oh, look, look.
I got these pants...

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Oh my.

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Wow, like Batman.
-That's exactly what I said.

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Now check this out.

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I'd rather you buy yourself a nice coat.

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I know, Mama.

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One day I will buy
myself a big-big coat.

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Here's the deal...

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I’m consulting everyone
about Raviv.

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About what?
-Dad.

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Oh Raviv.
-Yeah.

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I didn't answer his call.
-If it feels unnecessary, then don't.

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What do I need it for?

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The question is
if you want to see him.

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It’s totally up to you.

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You don't owe him a thing.
-Right.

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Where is it?

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My father and I don't talk
because he was never there for me,

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he was never a father
to me and my brother.

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He abandoned us
after I was born.

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When I was 11 and we came to Germany,
I remember he said...

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Why did he say it?
Something happened and he said:

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"You're acting like a homo."

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I remember I called my mum,

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because I was so hurt.
I was 11 years old.

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Are you alright?

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Johny?

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Yonatan?

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Yonatan?

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Johny?

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It's not the first time
that we see that.

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The second that he feels
stressed he sinks to himself.

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He doesn't feel strong enough
to face whatever he must.

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I know that the thing
with his dad...

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like, really upsets him,
the whole thing...

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and he barely talks about it.

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Originally my last name is "Langer''.
Yonatan Langer.

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"Langer" didn't do it for me.

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Agassi,
That's the name.

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Once I posted -
"Jonathan Agassi saved my life."

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He's a character

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that takes over me
whenever I need help.

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And he's always on my side.

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Hey everybody, Facebook,
how are you?

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I'm Jonathan Agassi, I'm all
prepared for the HustlaBall.

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Good luck to me, yeah.
Jonathan Agassi rocks.

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My mum posted "When You Are a King"
on my wall. Bless her heart.

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Time for HustlaBall.

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Whatever will be,
will be.

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Relax.

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I can't relax.
How can I relax?

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I'm one hour and a half late.

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Is the awards here?

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The awards show.

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Did it start? -Yeah.
-They started?

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Jonathan Agassi is
here by the way,

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I just got here, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I was late.

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"Lucas Entertainment."

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"The best American porn performer."

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Thank you,
thank you, thank you.

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"Mum, I'm the best actor
in the world of porn!"

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Are you waiting to pick something up?
-Yes.

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Here you go.

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Thank you very much.

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Yonatan, this time it's perfect.
-I'm sure.

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I got a bunch of my movies.

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Let me see.

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These are all your movies?
-No, of course not.

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What did you get?
-Mezuzahs (doorpost parchment).

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I got mezuzahs, how nice.

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Mezuzahs and porn.

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To each his religion.
-Exactly.

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That's awesome.

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Yonatan! It's really you.

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I'm in suspense.

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Now we go upstairs to fuck, so...
-Oh, okay.

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It's not for you.
-Up to here it was so good, Yonatan.

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Real cool.

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Oh no...

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I save everything on my computer,

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even my very first audition.

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So, Jonathan...

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What's your last name?
Jonathan Agassi?

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Jonathan Agassi.
-So tell me all about yourself.

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Well, I'm 24 years old.
-I live in Tel Aviv.

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You live at home?

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Yeah, with my mum,
and my dad lives in Berlin.

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Why does he live in Berlin?
-He likes it.

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They divorced?
-Yeah, since...

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Alright, so what was your
first sexual experience?

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When I was 14, in my 14th birthday.
-So what happened?

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He told me, "Close your eyes
and think it's a woman,"

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so I closed my eyes
and imagined it was him.

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I think since then,
that's what I like.

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And what do you like in bed?
-I like good, hard sex.

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Hard? -Yeah.
-Okay. -Not gentle...

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Don't you want me to be gentle
with you in your first film?

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A little bit gentle.
-A little gentle.

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Yeah.
-Let's try to be a little gentle.

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Jonathan understood how to work
for the camera very quickly.

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There is a big difference
between having sex in your personal life

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and how to have it for the camera.

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You have to separate the body
from your partner enough

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to let the camera in, and this
is something what he got within no time.

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Good evening and welcome to IBA News
coming to you from Jerusalem.

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Just a short distance from Jerusalem,
amidst the ruins of the Arab village of Suba,

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another scene from the American film
directed by Michael Lucas.

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One of Michael's discoveries in Israel
is actor and model Jonathan Agassi,

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who soon became a recognised and
admired star in the international

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adult entertainment industry.

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Jonathan became the star of an
incredibly successful production.

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Maybe the most successful production
in gay porn history.

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It got reviews
even in mainstream press.

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Los Angeles Times
written about that,

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so that was a fantastic
startup for his career.

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Hey guys, I'm Jonathan Agassi
and I'm about to have my first

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photoshoot here in Milan,
and you have to see that.

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Look how many clothes and shoes.

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Within 4-5 months there would be
no gay man that watches porn

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that would not know this face.

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He would be in
every gay magazine.

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He was incredibly popular.

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Anyway, you know I'm starting
my shoots on Saturday

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and I'm shooting 4 movies.
Not 3, not 2, not 1 - 4.

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Jonathan was one of those rare
performers that you'd right away

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feel how much he loves sex,
how much he wants his partner,

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it wasn't fake,
it was just so natural.

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He was bringing new elements of
performance to every scene.

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He would never be doing
the same routine.

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That is why people wanted to
see him again and again.

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Come and sit down,
no expectations - no let downs

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Imagine me as only you can

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Be what I need, don't let me rest
I'll keep you in suspense until you go mad

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All that's left
of the power that's over

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I'll save for tomorrow,
for another great day

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Yonatan!
-What?

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Oh my God.

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I have to get used to it,
it's kind of drastic.

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It's beautiful, it's beautiful...

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It's beautiful, it's amazing,
but it's weird.

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It doesn't look good?

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You're usually more impressed.

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Seeing you in stockings is weird.

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Lior.

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Lior will be shocked.

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Lior!
-What?

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Wow.

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What do you think?
-It's...revealing.

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Yeah, it's revealing,
but does it look good?

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What if I grow out my hair...?

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Hi, Shahaf.

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How are you?
-Fine.

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You're in Israel, Yonatan. -So?
-Is that how you're going out?

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You can't go out like that.
-Why? -You're not in Berlin.

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Shahaf, does it look nice?

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00:23:45,760 --> 00:23:51,320
It's nice, but I can't
see you like this, sorry.

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00:23:51,680 --> 00:23:56,320
I love you, you're my brother, but...

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00:24:20,320 --> 00:24:23,800
We were close as kids.
-Very close.

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When he came out at an early age,
I lost him.

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Maybe he lost you.
-No, I lost him.

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Don't you remember Yonatan saying:
"This guy called me a homo"

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The guy took out a knife.
What are you talking about?

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Fights in school, swearing.

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I know someone suffered,
but what could we do?

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Tell Yonatan not to come out
because everyone's getting hurt?

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You only care about yourself.
-I can’t get close to you.

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I have to deal with everyone's problems,
not just yours.

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All three of you.

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Yonatan had to deal with his new world...

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Where he's finally free and happy
and he doesn't give a damn.

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Put it on.

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You go on stage and you realise
you are in a war, only men,

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you miss your wife,

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you are horny,
you see men around you.

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All of my friends from out of Israel
always see on television - army, war...

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and for them,

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they think Israelis are always in
the army, always macho, always butch.

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Okay? It's a fantasy.

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David and I are in the center?
-Yes, of course.

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Try to look like in the military.
-They don't know what is the military.

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Two people, go in front.

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That's shocking.
Oh, Yonatan, really...

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Should I put it this way?
-Yes.

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I hope the heel won't break, Yonatan.

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Mom, you have to do me a favour.

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I have to send the postcards,
I forgot.

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Jonathan Agassi, superstar.

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You're making your fans real happy.

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00:30:28,440 --> 00:30:32,400
We're so lucky that Michael
shoots in exotic places.

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00:30:32,800 --> 00:30:37,720
Last time it was Ibiza and now this.
It's a dream...

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Maybe whenever I'm filming
I'll bring you 3 days before.

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God, he's so hot.

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00:31:17,040 --> 00:31:19,160
And he's horny,
I can tell.

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I can't describe what we went
through during his childhood.

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I got a call from school one day

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to tell me that Yonatan
is standing on the window sill,

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and kids are shouting,
"Jump, jump!"

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It was on the second floor.

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They said: "Go through the
window and shit on the tables."

245
00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:10,480
"Shit on the tables!"

246
00:32:10,680 --> 00:32:15,000
That's when I said to my mum,
"No, I don't want this."

247
00:32:15,040 --> 00:32:18,000
I swear, I'm tearing up.

248
00:32:20,280 --> 00:32:22,800
They understand that
I'm going to the extreme...

249
00:32:22,880 --> 00:32:26,200
not because I want to,
because I want to run away.

250
00:32:26,280 --> 00:32:28,520
I want to jump out the window?

251
00:32:29,720 --> 00:32:32,040
A 10 year old kid
breaks his arm.

252
00:32:32,160 --> 00:32:34,800
You'd expect his classmates
to come visit...

253
00:32:35,560 --> 00:32:38,240
They threw shit at me
because I'm feminine.

254
00:32:39,200 --> 00:32:41,760
And it's like,
I'm always the one to blame.

255
00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:45,240
I'm this, I'm that...
And it's not true.

256
00:32:46,760 --> 00:32:50,400
That's anguish.
That's anguish.

257
00:34:57,880 --> 00:35:00,720
I got the script 4 days ago.

258
00:35:00,760 --> 00:35:03,680
"Listen, there's a change in plans."

259
00:35:05,120 --> 00:35:11,680
My role is very minor,
I have 2 scenes in this movie.

260
00:35:11,720 --> 00:35:17,240
One scene is with the star of the movie
who took my place,

261
00:35:17,280 --> 00:35:18,960
I'm okay with that.

262
00:35:28,680 --> 00:35:33,400
My second scene is with
two "bodybuilders," all shaved.

263
00:35:33,520 --> 00:35:37,240
When you touch them you feel
like you're in a field of thorns.

264
00:35:37,600 --> 00:35:41,120
I don't shave my body,
it's not a matter of fashion,

265
00:35:41,160 --> 00:35:44,240
it's because I'm not attracted
to men who shave their chests.

266
00:35:44,480 --> 00:35:49,560
If I'm not attracted, I can't function
my dick won’t get hard.

267
00:35:49,600 --> 00:35:52,800
What am I, a machine?
Do I have batteries on my back?

268
00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:55,920
I can't have sex with those two.

269
00:35:55,960 --> 00:35:57,560
I can't.

270
00:35:57,600 --> 00:36:03,600
Michael, my boss, said that if I
don't like something I can tell him.

271
00:36:04,360 --> 00:36:09,800
Maybe it's a challenge to do a porn scene
with people you're not attracted to?

272
00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:11,800
I can't.

273
00:36:11,920 --> 00:36:13,920
I can't.

274
00:36:15,680 --> 00:36:21,360
I'm afraid people will say,
"Jonathan Agassi didn't rock it this time."

275
00:36:35,360 --> 00:36:38,960
We are very specific
about what we want

276
00:36:39,400 --> 00:36:42,400
Jonathan would violate our rules
and regulations all the time.

277
00:36:42,440 --> 00:36:44,600
More and more and more.

278
00:36:45,920 --> 00:36:49,800
He believed that in order to
compete with other models

279
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:53,160
he needs to start doing steroids,

280
00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:56,240
he needs to get these huge arms,

281
00:36:56,680 --> 00:36:58,240
he needs to get a beard.

282
00:36:58,600 --> 00:37:02,600
With every production,
more tattoos, more piercings.

283
00:37:03,800 --> 00:37:11,600
The more I'm asking him to keep the hair,
the shorter he will cut it,

284
00:37:12,800 --> 00:37:16,400
until one time he showed up
with platinum blond hair

285
00:37:16,960 --> 00:37:18,680
and we sent him home.

286
00:38:01,160 --> 00:38:04,240
Here, this is for you.
-Thanks.

287
00:38:04,800 --> 00:38:07,680
It's exactly what I wanted.
-Great.

288
00:38:11,440 --> 00:38:13,320
Sweetheart.

289
00:38:16,280 --> 00:38:18,800
Oh! Now I can see you.

290
00:38:22,880 --> 00:38:27,520
You're going to stay
Wednesday-Thursday?

291
00:38:27,600 --> 00:38:29,120
When's your flight?

292
00:38:29,160 --> 00:38:32,040
I have to buy a ticket to London.

293
00:38:36,680 --> 00:38:37,920
Why London?

294
00:38:38,000 --> 00:38:40,400
I have some work there.

295
00:38:41,120 --> 00:38:45,040
Nothing interesting, unless...

296
00:38:48,160 --> 00:38:49,360
What?

297
00:38:49,720 --> 00:38:53,240
Look what you did.
-What?

298
00:38:53,400 --> 00:38:55,800
Maybe you shouldn't have...

299
00:38:56,320 --> 00:39:01,160
I didn't know it's a secret,
I thought she knew.

300
00:39:01,200 --> 00:39:07,680
I've been talking about "clients"
for two years. What am I, a lawyer?

301
00:39:07,920 --> 00:39:10,400
I thought you understood.

302
00:39:10,440 --> 00:39:12,600
How was I supposed to understand?

303
00:39:13,120 --> 00:39:16,600
It's not a secret.
I talk about it openly.

304
00:39:17,680 --> 00:39:20,000
I always say...
-I don't remember.

305
00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:25,720
I thought you're performing
in all these places.

306
00:39:25,800 --> 00:39:28,240
When it's a performance
I say I'm performing.

307
00:39:28,640 --> 00:39:33,040
I thought the company you work for
arranges all these trips.

308
00:39:33,080 --> 00:39:36,240
No way.
Only when I'm making films.

309
00:39:36,320 --> 00:39:38,960
The company I work for
is a film company,

310
00:39:39,080 --> 00:39:40,480
only films.

311
00:39:40,960 --> 00:39:45,920
I started out with porn.
I only became an escort a year later.

312
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:48,240
Right, Mum?

313
00:39:59,160 --> 00:40:03,480
I'm not a prostitute, I'm an escort.
-What's the difference?

314
00:40:04,440 --> 00:40:08,400
It's not prostitution,
I don't stand on the street.

315
00:40:10,120 --> 00:40:21,400
This is what I say,
I can't create fantasies for people

316
00:40:21,760 --> 00:40:25,360
without giving them
the opportunity to fulfill them.

317
00:40:26,960 --> 00:40:30,240
They treat me with nothing but respect,

318
00:40:30,360 --> 00:40:35,000
and they all know Mum.
By name...

319
00:40:35,040 --> 00:40:38,120
They all know how amazing she is.

320
00:40:40,480 --> 00:40:44,800
Sometimes I enjoy it
even more than the porn...

321
00:40:45,880 --> 00:40:49,040
I'm going to meet a client.

322
00:40:49,160 --> 00:40:53,120
He's going on a business trip
so he's taking me with him.

323
00:40:53,240 --> 00:40:57,120
It's not prostitution,
it's Julia Roberts in "Pretty Woman."

324
00:41:45,160 --> 00:41:48,800
Show me...
It's nice.

325
00:41:49,880 --> 00:41:53,000
Amazing. -It fits?
-Perfectly.

326
00:41:56,200 --> 00:41:58,600
You're so beautiful.

327
00:42:01,000 --> 00:42:04,160
What do you say? -It's nice.
-You like it? -Yes.

328
00:42:04,680 --> 00:42:08,600
Thank you.
-Bye.

329
00:42:10,440 --> 00:42:13,760
Are you pleased?
-Yes, totally.

330
00:42:31,960 --> 00:42:39,000
I’m leaving for 2 months.
I’ll keep sending money.

331
00:42:39,240 --> 00:42:45,600
It's not your responsibility
to support us. -But it is.

332
00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:50,200
You don't make ends meet

333
00:42:50,240 --> 00:42:53,560
and I'll go out and buy
another pair of shoes?

334
00:42:53,920 --> 00:42:58,960
Okay, I'll splurge...
You think I can do that?

335
00:43:00,440 --> 00:43:02,160
I'm your man.

336
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:04,480
You're my man,
but you're also my child.

337
00:43:04,560 --> 00:43:10,520
I consider you my child first,
not my man.

338
00:43:18,800 --> 00:43:21,520
The first time I escorted
was in Israel.

339
00:43:21,680 --> 00:43:27,920
I wouldn't let him do what he did
if he didn't pay me.

340
00:43:28,960 --> 00:43:32,160
He thought he could buy me.
And he did.

341
00:43:32,600 --> 00:43:34,360
"Do this, get another $300."

342
00:43:36,960 --> 00:43:40,040
I came home at 10am

343
00:43:40,240 --> 00:43:43,040
with $4,000, fuckin' wasted,

344
00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:45,360
depressed, crying.

345
00:43:45,800 --> 00:43:51,200
I put the $4,000 here.
Then Mum got back from work

346
00:43:51,480 --> 00:43:56,560
and I said,
"I did something all night long,

347
00:43:56,680 --> 00:44:01,480
"I'm so sad,
I'll never be a prostitute."

348
00:44:01,560 --> 00:44:04,400
I remember taking out
all that money

349
00:44:04,520 --> 00:44:08,920
and Mum looked at it and asked,
"How much do you have there?!"

350
00:44:09,400 --> 00:44:14,400
"Weigh it against
how it made you feel.

351
00:44:14,560 --> 00:44:17,040
"Is it worth it?"

352
00:44:50,520 --> 00:44:56,560
Take care of yourself, promise me.
Don't do anything stupid. -Okay.

353
00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:08,680
Patty.
-Yeah?

354
00:46:08,720 --> 00:46:12,040
6th floor, baby.
-6th? Okay.

355
00:46:26,640 --> 00:46:29,200
Haven't they gotten bigger?
-You got bigger...

356
00:46:29,240 --> 00:46:30,920
I'm a Kardashian now,
I told you.

357
00:46:30,960 --> 00:46:33,440
Totally... -A Kardashian ass.
-Big ass.

358
00:46:33,480 --> 00:46:36,520
It is big. -I've got big boobs.
-Big boobs.

359
00:46:37,240 --> 00:46:39,360
So, I don't care that
there is a camera...

360
00:46:39,400 --> 00:46:42,560
Do you wanna sniff something?
-Sure, what is it? -Coke.

361
00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:45,000
I also got a lot of T...

362
00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:47,600
I just started today.
-Tina? -Yeah, you want?

363
00:46:47,640 --> 00:46:51,040
Girl, no. -No? I don't do it.
-I told you it's bad.

364
00:46:51,080 --> 00:46:52,800
Yeah...

365
00:46:52,920 --> 00:46:55,760
So now you're here, where are you staying?
-Bernard's apartment.

366
00:46:55,800 --> 00:46:58,320
You're not staying with your dad?
-No.

367
00:46:58,360 --> 00:47:00,480
What's going on there?

368
00:47:01,600 --> 00:47:03,800
With my father? I don't know.

369
00:47:03,880 --> 00:47:06,000
We didn't talk for a long time.

370
00:47:06,040 --> 00:47:07,800
Very, very long time.

371
00:47:07,920 --> 00:47:10,800
Fathers is shit.

372
00:47:10,960 --> 00:47:13,000
That's why I only deal with my mum.

373
00:47:13,040 --> 00:47:14,800
Mums are the best.

374
00:47:14,880 --> 00:47:17,680
Yeah. -Sometimes.
-Unless they are evil.

375
00:47:21,800 --> 00:47:27,720
I don't care about daddies, unless...
it's my kind of daddy.

376
00:47:39,320 --> 00:47:41,720
I could have been you.

377
00:47:55,400 --> 00:48:02,320
When I was 15
I was sure I want to be a woman.

378
00:48:13,600 --> 00:48:16,800
I wanted to be one of the gang.

379
00:48:16,880 --> 00:48:21,520
I never fit in.
Not in high school, not anywhere.

380
00:49:21,920 --> 00:49:26,120
I love filming most of all,
more than the sex and the money.

381
00:49:26,160 --> 00:49:28,800
I like filming
and watching what I do.

382
00:49:36,360 --> 00:49:40,920
It turns me on that I can play a game,
that it's not just the fucking.

383
00:49:48,080 --> 00:49:53,600
If someone fucked me and treated me
like that, I'd be over the moon.

384
00:50:06,880 --> 00:50:13,960
So are you more masculine or feminine?
-That's not the point.

385
00:50:14,000 --> 00:50:17,800
That's how everyone's mind works.

386
00:50:18,040 --> 00:50:21,320
If you're a bottom,
then you're feminine.

387
00:50:21,400 --> 00:50:23,440
I don't care about that.

388
00:50:23,480 --> 00:50:27,040
I can turn over with
the utmost confidence,

389
00:50:27,120 --> 00:50:30,600
without losing my macho
for a second

390
00:50:30,720 --> 00:50:33,920
and say: "Yeah, fuck my pussy."

391
00:50:33,960 --> 00:50:36,800
"Get me pregnant,
make me your bitch."

392
00:50:40,200 --> 00:50:43,640
So do straight men want you
to be a woman?

393
00:50:43,680 --> 00:50:46,120
No, straight men
don't want me to be a woman,

394
00:50:46,200 --> 00:50:49,200
if they did, I'd tell them to
get the fuck out.

395
00:50:49,240 --> 00:50:52,880
It may help a straight guy
who is dying to fuck a man,

396
00:50:52,920 --> 00:50:54,880
but his ego won't let him,

397
00:50:54,920 --> 00:50:59,760
so when he sees a guy dressed like this,
something unwinds in his brain.

398
00:50:59,880 --> 00:51:03,120
They wouldn't go for a man
if they wanted a woman.

399
00:51:03,280 --> 00:51:07,040
What's the point of that?

400
00:51:27,760 --> 00:51:32,640
The only thing I care about now
is what I should upload on Facebook...

401
00:51:32,680 --> 00:51:36,240
First I need to call Mum.

402
00:51:52,160 --> 00:51:55,160
Sweetie?
-Just a second, Mum.

403
00:51:58,920 --> 00:52:00,800
One second.

404
00:52:02,160 --> 00:52:03,880
I forgot something.

405
00:52:03,920 --> 00:52:07,200
I can see you in the mirror.
– Oh shit.

406
00:52:09,920 --> 00:52:12,920
You look so good!

407
00:52:12,960 --> 00:52:15,920
I didn't put black eyeliner.

408
00:52:16,000 --> 00:52:19,240
You're so handsome.
Turn around.

409
00:52:19,400 --> 00:52:23,400
Oh, it's...
-It's the yellow lace.

410
00:52:23,520 --> 00:52:25,800
Nice, right?

411
00:52:26,680 --> 00:52:31,560
Remember these 100 Euro gloves
that I spilled Coke on?

412
00:52:31,880 --> 00:52:33,760
Well, here they are.

413
00:52:33,800 --> 00:52:35,600
Wonderful.

414
00:52:35,760 --> 00:52:38,640
You look like those women
in the movies,

415
00:52:38,680 --> 00:52:42,720
with the garters and stockings.

416
00:52:44,760 --> 00:52:47,000
Are you going to wear something warm?

417
00:52:47,080 --> 00:52:50,280
Yes, I'm taking my coat.

418
00:52:50,320 --> 00:52:51,400
Okay.

419
00:52:52,400 --> 00:52:55,400
Good luck, darling!
–I love you!

420
00:52:55,640 --> 00:52:57,800
You are my star.

421
00:53:00,400 --> 00:53:01,320
Taxi.

422
00:53:01,560 --> 00:53:02,800
Taxi.

423
00:53:04,120 --> 00:53:08,600
Taxi, you free now?
Hello. You free?

424
00:53:08,720 --> 00:53:11,920
Five minutes I come down.
Five minutes.

425
00:53:13,760 --> 00:53:17,520
We're all set.
I got drugs.

426
00:53:17,680 --> 00:53:21,360
Keys, cigarettes, chewing gum.

427
00:53:23,360 --> 00:53:24,400
G.

428
00:53:28,800 --> 00:53:30,040
I got this.

429
00:53:32,320 --> 00:53:33,240
I come, I come.

430
00:53:35,960 --> 00:53:37,000
We're coming down!

431
00:53:53,040 --> 00:53:56,800
I'm so nervous,
my stomach is turning.

432
00:53:56,920 --> 00:54:00,680
I haven't thought about
what I should say if I win.

433
00:54:01,040 --> 00:54:02,800
Thank you so much everybody for...

434
00:54:02,960 --> 00:54:04,920
It's the audience that votes.

435
00:54:04,960 --> 00:54:07,800
Thank you very much for choosing me
as the best actor of the year.

436
00:54:07,880 --> 00:54:11,880
I just wanted everybody to know
that this is my pride and joy

437
00:54:11,920 --> 00:54:14,600
and the best thing
that ever happened to my life,

438
00:54:14,640 --> 00:54:19,120
so I'm proud and happy to be
the best of it in your eyes.

439
00:54:21,680 --> 00:54:25,480
I'm very excited,
getting this award second time in a row.

440
00:54:25,520 --> 00:54:27,680
Hopefully we'll be here
for many years to come.

441
00:54:27,720 --> 00:54:31,200
Thank you very much.
Shalom, bye bye.

442
00:54:31,880 --> 00:54:34,240
Perfect, isn't it?

443
00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:47,800
Thank you, bye bye.

444
00:55:22,880 --> 00:55:26,040
I should turn the power on,
this way it works. Plug it in.

445
00:55:26,880 --> 00:55:32,520
Nominee number one,
Lucio Saints for The Alpha Male Dream Team.

446
00:55:32,560 --> 00:55:39,400
Best Actor nominee number two,
Kevin Warhol from Belami - Kinky Angels.

447
00:55:39,440 --> 00:55:46,040
Best Actor nominee number 3,
Jonathan Agassi from Lucas Entertainment.

448
00:55:46,080 --> 00:55:48,480
And the winner is...

449
00:55:48,520 --> 00:55:54,120
For The Alpha Male Dream Team,
Lucio Saints, best actor.

450
00:55:56,440 --> 00:55:58,760
Dream Team - Alpha Male.

451
00:56:33,000 --> 00:56:36,960
Now I want you to say 3 times:
"Jonathan Agassi is the best."

452
00:56:37,000 --> 00:56:39,520
Jonathan Agassi is the best.

453
00:56:39,600 --> 00:56:42,120
Jonathan Agassi is the best.

454
00:56:42,280 --> 00:56:44,800
Jonathan Agassi is the best.

455
00:57:12,680 --> 00:57:21,800
Hi Johnny, it's Dad.
I heard you're in Berlin. Call me. Bye.

456
00:57:24,440 --> 00:57:29,080
Are you telling me that the fact
that your father abandoned you

457
00:57:29,120 --> 00:57:31,160
didn't hurt you? – No.

458
00:57:31,200 --> 00:57:35,400
I couldn't care less.

459
00:57:35,520 --> 00:57:39,240
Ask my mum,
I always said my dad is dead.

460
00:57:39,360 --> 00:57:43,120
Ask her!
"My dad is dead."

461
00:57:51,480 --> 00:57:54,800
My grandparents,
Raviv's parents,

462
00:57:55,400 --> 00:57:59,000
they used to send videos
of us to my father.

463
00:57:59,440 --> 00:58:01,440
They'd tell Shahaf and me,

464
00:58:01,480 --> 00:58:05,760
"Look in the camera,
Dad is inside."

465
00:58:05,800 --> 00:58:08,640
"Look, Dad is in the camera."

466
00:58:08,680 --> 00:58:11,720
"Dad is inside,
Dad is here."

467
00:58:16,360 --> 00:58:19,560
We never got any film back from him.

468
00:58:20,240 --> 00:58:24,800
My dad was always a red dot
in the camera.

469
00:58:33,560 --> 00:58:37,800
You know what?
You want memories? You want drama?

470
00:58:38,880 --> 00:58:40,960
It all came back to me.

471
00:58:46,120 --> 00:58:48,360
It’s Shahaf’s Bar-Mitzvah
(13th birthday).

472
00:58:48,520 --> 00:58:52,160
He gets a ticket
from Raviv’s mother.

473
00:58:52,440 --> 00:58:55,480
Yonatan wants to go to Germany too.

474
00:58:56,280 --> 00:59:00,320
I was really hurt by Raviv
because he called me "Homo."

475
00:59:00,480 --> 00:59:03,200
What kind of father does that?
-Does what?

476
00:59:03,280 --> 00:59:07,200
Gets women for his son to fuck.
That’s why he called me a homo.

477
00:59:07,360 --> 00:59:10,680
He wanted me to fuck her
and I couldn’t.

478
00:59:10,760 --> 00:59:14,560
She kissed me on the mouth.
I’ll show you a picture of her.

479
00:59:14,680 --> 00:59:18,160
Where did this happen?
-In Frankfurt. -In a brothel?

480
00:59:18,200 --> 00:59:22,480
No, she was my dad’s girlfriend.

481
00:59:22,520 --> 00:59:26,720
My dad orchestrated the whole thing
for me to fuck her.

482
00:59:26,760 --> 00:59:29,400
Don’t forget that I was 12.

483
00:59:56,200 --> 00:59:59,480
Were you mad at him?

484
00:59:59,960 --> 01:00:06,400
All I cared about was going home
with a thong from Germany.

485
01:00:48,200 --> 01:00:50,960
It's not ready yet.

486
01:00:53,000 --> 01:00:56,600
It's a hard drug.

487
01:00:59,000 --> 01:01:02,720
This is "Ms. Tina."
This is "Tina."

488
01:01:04,600 --> 01:01:09,160
It gets you mile-high,
gives you loads of energy.

489
01:01:09,240 --> 01:01:13,920
It awakens you.
It's not a trip like you get on Ecstasy.

490
01:01:14,800 --> 01:01:17,880
It makes you very sexual.

491
01:01:17,920 --> 01:01:20,400
Oh, I have to inject myself.

492
01:01:25,920 --> 01:01:33,120
This injection makes your dick
stone hard for 4 hours.

493
01:01:33,200 --> 01:01:35,240
Rock solid.

494
01:01:35,320 --> 01:01:37,120
And afterwards it's really painful.

495
01:01:40,200 --> 01:01:44,760
Would you fuck yourself?
– Absolutely not!

496
01:01:47,280 --> 01:01:48,800
I've never been...

497
01:01:48,880 --> 01:01:52,320
I don't like all those pretty boys.

498
01:02:37,000 --> 01:02:42,120
You have to draw the needle,
you treat the needle like any other injection.

499
01:02:42,160 --> 01:02:47,360
Here, here, here, here and here,
just not straight up the middle.

500
01:02:47,400 --> 01:02:51,200
And when you inject
does it burn or does it sting?

501
01:02:51,240 --> 01:02:54,800
Well, some people do it fast,
some people do it slow.

502
01:02:54,880 --> 01:02:59,120
I do it really slow,
so I don't have a sting.

503
01:03:08,400 --> 01:03:13,240
Okay, you are the next one
on the main stage, I bring you there.

504
01:03:13,720 --> 01:03:18,360
Can you make sure
that nobody comes here, please?

505
01:03:37,040 --> 01:03:40,240
First group...

506
01:04:01,240 --> 01:04:05,760
This gift, this career,
is the best thing that ever happened to me.

507
01:04:07,160 --> 01:04:10,520
After all the bad,
this is the best thing that happened to me.

508
01:04:10,560 --> 01:04:13,960
I’m going to hold on to it forever.

509
01:05:58,160 --> 01:06:03,000
Michael Lucas has been begging me
to do bareback for over a year.

510
01:06:03,040 --> 01:06:05,760
Bareback films are shot
without a condom.

511
01:06:05,880 --> 01:06:10,400
You're our presenter, our exclusive,
you need to do bareback.

512
01:06:11,080 --> 01:06:13,320
On the day of filming
I had a client,

513
01:06:13,640 --> 01:06:18,680
so I arrived on set an hour late,
a little high on G.

514
01:06:19,240 --> 01:06:24,160
The first actor, 21 cm long cock,
it practically reached my heart.

515
01:06:24,360 --> 01:06:25,440
I got ripped to pieces.

516
01:06:25,480 --> 01:06:30,760
It hurt, I fell off the couch,
I did everything for that scene,

517
01:06:30,800 --> 01:06:35,000
for the first time in my life
I couldn't cum on set.

518
01:06:35,040 --> 01:06:37,880
My ass hurt, I couldn't cum.

519
01:06:37,920 --> 01:06:41,760
First time in my life
that I had to fake an orgasm.

520
01:06:42,000 --> 01:06:45,360
You use some kind of cream
that looks like cum

521
01:06:45,560 --> 01:06:47,240
and you fake it.

522
01:06:47,640 --> 01:06:50,400
A month passes,
I'm supposed to get paid.

523
01:06:50,560 --> 01:06:53,800
They didn't pay me for the scene.

524
01:06:53,880 --> 01:06:56,880
Because I didn't cum.
They payed me $1,000.

525
01:06:56,920 --> 01:06:59,800
"You couldn't ejaculate."

526
01:08:11,160 --> 01:08:12,600
Hello.

527
01:08:20,880 --> 01:08:22,600
For what time?

528
01:08:25,640 --> 01:08:28,200
When is it possible for you?

529
01:08:30,040 --> 01:08:33,240
I'm just on the streets,
I can barely hear you because of the fireworks.

530
01:08:33,280 --> 01:08:36,080
I'll get to my apartment in 10 minutes
and I'll give you a call.

531
01:08:36,120 --> 01:08:38,240
I think it's possible,
definitely possible.

532
01:08:38,720 --> 01:08:41,320
Okay, perfect.
See you, bye.

533
01:08:42,480 --> 01:08:44,400
I've got work.

534
01:08:47,080 --> 01:08:50,560
I'm so tired.

535
01:09:12,280 --> 01:09:14,960
How many are you, by the way?
-Two.

536
01:09:15,000 --> 01:09:18,600
Oh, that's even double the pleasure.

537
01:09:18,640 --> 01:09:23,400
I have a huge dick.
-I really love huge dicks,

538
01:09:23,440 --> 01:09:26,640
I'm definitely coming,
but it'll take me an hour or something like that.

539
01:09:26,680 --> 01:09:27,760
Alright.

540
01:09:29,120 --> 01:09:36,240
I'm so exhausted.
I don't know how I'm going to do this.

541
01:10:10,560 --> 01:10:13,800
I really don’t want to let people down.

542
01:10:14,880 --> 01:10:19,600
When someone goes to bed
with Jonathan Agassi they want a god.

543
01:10:19,880 --> 01:10:22,120
If not,
they'll be let down.

544
01:10:22,920 --> 01:10:26,680
"He's not that good,
that Jonathan Agassi."

545
01:10:30,560 --> 01:10:36,800
When I feel close to someone
I feel free not to take Viagra or to function.

546
01:10:37,480 --> 01:10:41,720
But how do I know if they're not with
me just because I’m Jonathan Agassi?

547
01:10:42,920 --> 01:10:45,160
I don’t need a boyfriend.

548
01:10:45,200 --> 01:10:50,320
People pay to sleep with me,
so I can make them hug me too.

549
01:11:32,600 --> 01:11:36,560
He should be here at around 19:30...
I think.

550
01:11:38,960 --> 01:11:40,400
He called me.

551
01:11:41,680 --> 01:11:49,400
Hey Johnny, it's Dad, are we on for today?
Remind me what your address is. Bye.

552
01:12:52,080 --> 01:12:53,400
You got anything to drink?

553
01:12:53,480 --> 01:12:56,920
What do you want?
-Water, not from the tap.

554
01:12:59,720 --> 01:13:03,240
Do you have a boyfriend?
-No.

555
01:13:03,880 --> 01:13:07,800
Me neither.
-A girlfriend?

556
01:13:07,920 --> 01:13:10,240
You have a girlfriend?
-Two.

557
01:13:11,120 --> 01:13:17,400
Three, actually.
But one doesn't know she's my girlfriend.

558
01:13:17,440 --> 01:13:23,240
Why, did you think I changed?
I haven't changed. -Me either.

559
01:13:23,400 --> 01:13:28,120
You always liked to screw.
Just screw.

560
01:13:28,160 --> 01:13:30,240
I learned from my son.
Or my son learned from me.

561
01:13:30,920 --> 01:13:37,920
If I could I'd make money from it too,
but instead I make kids.

562
01:13:37,960 --> 01:13:39,520
You make kids.

563
01:13:40,040 --> 01:13:44,160
Listen, we can talk about
sex non-stop.

564
01:13:44,240 --> 01:13:50,400
Okay, let's stop talking about sex
and start talking about women.

565
01:13:50,520 --> 01:13:53,720
About one woman.
-Who?

566
01:13:53,760 --> 01:13:56,800
A woman I know well.
-Oh, your mother? –Yes!

567
01:13:56,880 --> 01:13:59,400
Oh, your mother.

568
01:14:00,000 --> 01:14:02,240
Mum was the most beautiful woman
in the city, right?

569
01:14:02,320 --> 01:14:09,600
I saw her and said, what is that?
I'll never get a woman like that.

570
01:14:09,680 --> 01:14:11,360
She was so beautiful.

571
01:14:11,680 --> 01:14:15,200
So I asked her,
when do we get married?

572
01:14:15,280 --> 01:14:17,960
She said, "Wednesday."

573
01:14:18,000 --> 01:14:23,040
We got married,
we didn't get out of bed for 3 weeks.

574
01:14:23,640 --> 01:14:28,960
If it was such a great love,
why did it end?

575
01:14:32,280 --> 01:14:34,400
I don't know.

576
01:14:35,400 --> 01:14:39,800
You have no remorse?
-I've got plenty.

577
01:14:41,000 --> 01:14:46,080
But what's done is done.
-You could have done it differently.

578
01:14:46,120 --> 01:14:47,960
What could I have done differently?

579
01:14:48,000 --> 01:14:52,560
I think that while I was in Berlin...

580
01:14:53,440 --> 01:14:57,600
I wanted to have
a father again.

581
01:14:57,720 --> 01:15:03,240
Yonatan, you’re my son,
you’ll always be my son and I love you.

582
01:15:04,600 --> 01:15:06,120
I believe...

583
01:15:06,440 --> 01:15:12,040
Love has to be shown.
"I won’t see you all my life, but I love you?"

584
01:15:12,200 --> 01:15:15,560
"Accept the fact
that I take no responsibility for you."

585
01:15:15,760 --> 01:15:19,720
I take no responsibility for anything!

586
01:15:21,000 --> 01:15:24,760
That’s me,
I don’t take responsibility for myself.

587
01:15:24,800 --> 01:15:27,560
You never forget Zoe...

588
01:15:27,640 --> 01:15:31,560
Zoe is a different story.

589
01:15:31,640 --> 01:15:35,240
We’ll get to that.
-She's a child.

590
01:15:35,680 --> 01:15:38,600
We were children too.

591
01:15:38,680 --> 01:15:42,680
You’re a big boy.
-But I used to be a child too.

592
01:15:42,720 --> 01:15:47,160
You used to be,
but I was different back then.

593
01:15:47,360 --> 01:15:55,560
In all honesty,
Shahaf is the only child that was planned.

594
01:15:55,600 --> 01:15:59,200
We wanted to leave Israel
and move to the US,

595
01:15:59,240 --> 01:16:02,080
we didn't get a visa,
we moved to Canada.

596
01:16:02,120 --> 01:16:10,560
After only 4 months in Canada
your mom says she's pregnant.

597
01:16:10,600 --> 01:16:13,120
Now you're telling me?

598
01:16:13,160 --> 01:16:18,200
She wanted a girl,
she was sure it's a girl

599
01:16:18,240 --> 01:16:21,480
and that's the only reason
we kept the pregnancy.

600
01:16:21,520 --> 01:16:27,200
In the end it was a boy
and for her it was a shock.

601
01:16:27,240 --> 01:16:30,600
She had postpartum depression.

602
01:16:30,640 --> 01:16:36,720
Postpartum depression
or just depressed because it was a boy?

603
01:16:36,760 --> 01:16:41,480
She was shocked it was a boy, not a girl.

604
01:16:41,520 --> 01:16:44,760
She was devastated.

605
01:16:44,800 --> 01:16:48,800
You were always alone.

606
01:16:48,880 --> 01:16:53,240
You were in your crib...

607
01:16:53,280 --> 01:16:57,400
I mean, you were always clean
and well fed,

608
01:16:57,440 --> 01:17:03,720
but you never got the hugs
and attention a baby needs.

609
01:17:04,600 --> 01:17:10,320
How long did her depression last
after I was born?

610
01:17:10,360 --> 01:17:14,000
Until she returned to Israel.

611
01:17:14,200 --> 01:17:19,400
That’s why she left.
Do you understand?

612
01:17:22,080 --> 01:17:26,920
And if I was a girl?
Would everything be different?

613
01:17:27,760 --> 01:17:32,800
I’m not trying to blame anyone...
but your mother’s depression...

614
01:17:33,000 --> 01:17:35,760
So you are blaming someone.

615
01:17:36,480 --> 01:17:40,240
That was a big part
of what came between us.

616
01:17:40,480 --> 01:17:47,800
I became cold, distant.
That’s how I dealt with it.

617
01:17:49,000 --> 01:17:52,800
I simply shut my heart.

618
01:19:09,560 --> 01:19:11,720
Cutie, how are you?

619
01:19:12,480 --> 01:19:15,520
Listen, it was really nice.

620
01:19:15,720 --> 01:19:19,960
Raviv said good things about you.
-Really?

621
01:19:20,000 --> 01:19:28,800
He said how beautiful you were
and what a great love you had.

622
01:19:29,960 --> 01:19:38,800
In the end I asked him,
what if I was born a girl?

623
01:19:40,960 --> 01:19:43,760
He was like this,
"I don't know."

624
01:19:44,200 --> 01:19:46,320
What do you mean,
if you were born a girl?

625
01:19:46,880 --> 01:19:51,800
We talked a lot about your breakup.

626
01:19:52,000 --> 01:19:56,360
He said that you really wanted a girl

627
01:19:56,400 --> 01:19:59,800
and that's why things
got messy between you.

628
01:20:00,480 --> 01:20:02,800
Can't you hear me?

629
01:20:02,880 --> 01:20:07,040
What does me wanting a girl
have to do with the mess between us?

630
01:20:08,240 --> 01:20:14,600
At one point I asked him who's to blame?
He said, "Your mum's depression."

631
01:20:14,920 --> 01:20:18,680
I was depressed because I had a boy?
Oh please...

632
01:20:19,240 --> 01:20:24,960
I was depressed because I was neglected
in some dump in New York.

633
01:20:25,000 --> 01:20:30,320
I suffered every day and cried all day
and I had no one to talk to.

634
01:20:30,360 --> 01:20:37,480
The man came home
just to snore all night on the couch.

635
01:20:37,560 --> 01:20:39,800
That's why I was depressed.

636
01:20:39,880 --> 01:20:43,680
I wanted to return to Israel
and I was ashamed

637
01:20:43,720 --> 01:20:46,720
to ask my parents for more money,

638
01:20:46,760 --> 01:20:50,600
because he spent it all
on his crappy business affairs.

639
01:20:51,440 --> 01:20:54,680
He used to say:
"So you won't eat,

640
01:20:54,720 --> 01:20:57,040
"as long as the kids have food."

641
01:20:59,560 --> 01:21:04,600
So my depression didn't come from
having a son and not a daughter.

642
01:21:07,320 --> 01:21:10,240
What do you think?
-That he's a son of a bitch.

643
01:21:10,280 --> 01:21:13,960
What is it, sweetie?
-He made such a fool out of me.

644
01:21:14,000 --> 01:21:17,200
Why?

645
01:21:18,120 --> 01:21:21,040
Because I'm so naïve,
I bought his story.

646
01:21:21,160 --> 01:21:24,800
What?
-Because I bought his story.

647
01:21:28,280 --> 01:21:30,400
Yonatan...

648
01:21:32,520 --> 01:21:36,800
What did you say?
-Nothing, nothing.

649
01:21:40,800 --> 01:21:45,040
I was calm before and now I'm angry.

650
01:21:45,080 --> 01:21:49,960
Sweetie, I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry.

651
01:23:36,680 --> 01:23:38,160
Sick!

652
01:23:38,440 --> 01:23:39,920
Depressed!

653
01:23:40,400 --> 01:23:42,760
Going through a bad period.

654
01:23:53,880 --> 01:23:57,280
Hello.
-Hey, it's Jonathan, did you call me?

655
01:23:57,320 --> 01:24:00,160
Yes, I did.
-Yeah, hi.

656
01:24:00,200 --> 01:24:07,120
Hi, I saw your ad on Gay Romeo.
-Okay.

657
01:24:07,160 --> 01:24:10,920
And you are in Prenzlauer Berg?
-I'm in Prenzlauer Berg, yeah.

658
01:24:10,960 --> 01:24:15,800
Did you bring any leather by any chance?
-Did I bring what?

659
01:24:15,880 --> 01:24:18,880
Did you bring any leather?
-Leather, yeah, I have some leather.

660
01:24:18,920 --> 01:24:21,720
Where are you from?
-From Israel, Tel Aviv.

661
01:24:21,760 --> 01:24:25,960
Ah, you're from Israel. Okay.
-You like them Israelis.

662
01:24:26,000 --> 01:24:30,920
You're just visiting?
-Yeah, something like that.

663
01:24:30,960 --> 01:24:32,800
What you looking for?

664
01:24:33,920 --> 01:24:39,240
If you have a dick size XL...
-Yeah, a bit more than XL.

665
01:24:39,480 --> 01:24:41,800
Can you just send me a picture?

666
01:24:41,880 --> 01:24:46,120
Yeah, if you can just send me
a message on Gay Romeo...

667
01:24:55,640 --> 01:24:58,920
Let's wait for an answer.

668
01:25:07,720 --> 01:25:13,000
I don't feel like sex,
I don't feel like work or friends,

669
01:25:13,040 --> 01:25:14,320
I don't feel like anything.

670
01:26:08,760 --> 01:26:11,360
How are you?
-Fine.

671
01:26:11,400 --> 01:26:13,400
I had a terrible day.

672
01:26:13,880 --> 01:26:18,360
A dreadful night
and a dreadful day.

673
01:26:19,240 --> 01:26:21,520
It's so traumatic.

674
01:26:26,240 --> 01:26:29,800
It's unbelievable
how much it still hurts.

675
01:26:30,000 --> 01:26:32,240
It's like he lives…

676
01:26:32,400 --> 01:26:41,000
At night I felt like his big fat
shadow was crushing me.

677
01:26:42,480 --> 01:26:45,800
I tossed and turned all night.

678
01:26:46,720 --> 01:26:51,800
I woke up feeling beaten.

679
01:26:55,320 --> 01:26:58,760
It really insulted me.

680
01:27:01,960 --> 01:27:04,920
What he said
really insulted me.

681
01:27:05,000 --> 01:27:08,200
He twisted the truth
and insulted me.

682
01:27:10,480 --> 01:27:16,800
You know what I've been
through, the depressions...

683
01:27:17,000 --> 01:27:18,800
And you never walked away.

684
01:27:18,960 --> 01:27:22,240
It didn't make
me walk away.

685
01:27:23,080 --> 01:27:25,000
I'm sorry I caused all of this.

686
01:27:25,080 --> 01:27:28,800
I'm sorry I agreed to
it in the first place.

687
01:27:28,880 --> 01:27:32,720
It's not you who caused it,

688
01:27:32,800 --> 01:27:35,320
it's his lies that caused it.

689
01:27:35,440 --> 01:27:37,680
It's not you.

690
01:27:38,880 --> 01:27:42,040
I don't doubt you at all.

691
01:27:42,200 --> 01:27:46,480
You're the best mum in the world.
-I don’t need praise.

692
01:27:46,800 --> 01:27:53,400
I know I'm not the world's best mum,
because if I were...

693
01:27:54,360 --> 01:27:56,040
Then what?

694
01:27:56,440 --> 01:28:00,160
Not everything is...

695
01:28:00,760 --> 01:28:02,560
glitter and gold.

696
01:28:04,400 --> 01:28:07,680
I see mothers who
are much better than me.

697
01:28:07,760 --> 01:28:11,920
For me you're the best,
you know that.

698
01:28:12,280 --> 01:28:15,160
I couldn't have asked for more.

699
01:28:16,600 --> 01:28:20,400
I love you, Mum.
-I love you too.

700
01:29:13,720 --> 01:29:18,720
I've been waiting out here,
you're 30 minutes late.

701
01:29:18,760 --> 01:29:24,760
What can I say, I have a life too.

702
01:29:25,400 --> 01:29:27,440
You know?

703
01:29:27,480 --> 01:29:30,000
How are you, Zoe?

704
01:29:30,880 --> 01:29:32,760
Okay, listen.

705
01:29:33,160 --> 01:29:37,960
This is from Mum.
She wrote you a letter.

706
01:29:39,480 --> 01:29:40,600
That's it.

707
01:29:47,120 --> 01:29:49,200
I'll see you sometime.

708
01:29:49,360 --> 01:29:50,680
I hope so.

709
01:29:50,920 --> 01:29:52,240
I hope so.

710
01:29:55,560 --> 01:29:57,720
I love you, Zoe.

711
01:29:58,160 --> 01:30:00,320
Love you.

712
01:30:06,440 --> 01:30:08,200
Bye.

713
01:33:41,240 --> 01:33:45,400
Yonatan? Yonatan?
Yonatan?

714
01:33:45,760 --> 01:33:47,800
Yonatan?

715
01:33:51,520 --> 01:33:58,400
I'll get you some water.
Get up, everything is okay.

716
01:34:29,720 --> 01:34:32,800
I did so much drugs
in the past two days.

717
01:35:27,040 --> 01:35:30,200
Yonatan, Yonatan.
-What?

718
01:35:32,240 --> 01:35:35,920
Talk to me, Yonatan.

719
01:36:53,440 --> 01:36:56,760
Yonatan, are you breathing?

720
01:38:10,760 --> 01:38:13,240
I'm exhausted, Mum.

721
01:38:37,280 --> 01:38:40,000
I have no energy at all.

722
01:38:44,280 --> 01:38:48,920
Nothing worked out for me there.

723
01:38:52,240 --> 01:38:54,320
And you're not there.

724
01:39:00,360 --> 01:39:02,040
It's okay.

725
01:40:17,400 --> 01:40:24,320
I'm having... a rough time.

726
01:40:25,680 --> 01:40:28,720
Rough, sad, weak...

727
01:40:32,760 --> 01:40:34,800
I can't really sleep.

728
01:40:40,160 --> 01:40:43,560
My sex drive is gone.

729
01:40:43,960 --> 01:40:46,760
I can't perform sexually.

730
01:40:49,280 --> 01:40:56,240
It seems I am all the things
I say I'm not.

731
01:40:57,240 --> 01:41:00,360
I got addicted to a certain drug.

732
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Thinking I'm muscular,
working out,

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eating and sleeping sometimes,
having sex, being horny,

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it all seemed real,
but it came from an unreal place.

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I was on drugs the whole time.

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I've been thinking
of posting a Facebook status,

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"I can see the end of Jonathan Agassi."

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Someone told me
I'm the Marilyn Monroe of this world.

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I hope it will end that way for me,
everyone will see me as a legend.